I’m having a grim and grumpy day today. And my eating is reflecting that. I have such a long list of things I have to do that I have no business posting this. But I need a break and five minutes isn’t going to kill me, right? So while I’m being crabby and pissy and overwhelmed with work and personal to-do lists, I’m eating all kinds of snacks. The only small success I can muster is that I’ve only been eating 100 calorie paks. But… well, lots of them. But that really is a success right now because every part of my being wants to go down the hall, slap 65 cents into that machine and eat me a Twix. And then shove another 65 cents in and have a Snickers. And then some chips sound really good, surely I can find another 50 cents. But I’ve had a diet drink and enough 100 calorie paks that the Twix would have been better, but I know that Twix will send me down a slippery slope of “what the hell does it matter now” and I can’t let that happen. So really, I’m going to feel proud of the willpower I’ve managed to muster today. And now I’m going to go back to work.

Well, I have a new motivation to get back to goal. I’m going to California for a week in July. I was selected as an Apple Distinguished Educator. Whoo hoo! It’s not a job change or anything like that -  just an honor. But not just an honor. There were 100 selected in the US and Canada. Not sure how many applicants. Probably 103. But anyway, I’m going to Monterey, California for a week for the ADE Summer Institute. So there ya go, a reason to lose weight, and a time frame in which to reach my goal. Apparently the other 187 reasons aren’t good enough – maybe this one will be.

I’m not trying to neglect this time. I’m really now. Life has been really busy and it seems my personal health has taken a back seat to everything else I need to get done. And when that happens, this site doesn’t get updated much. But it’s spring break now and no big deadlines so maybe I’ll be better.