The Munchies…
May 30th, 2001 by Anna

Hmm… I’m still happy with my daily results on the scale. And I’m still keeping within my points and staying on program. But for the last three nights I’ve been having serious munchies. I’m hungry hungry hungry and really want to eat junk food. It’s happening mostly when Meghan is asleep and I’m on the computer. We’re talking 9 or 10 o’clock at night. I’m adding up to five points to my daily total during this time frame. I think I’m going to make a new rule for myself and say that anything after 9:00pm will count double-points after I’ve met my minimum. That should curb the snacking. But that won’t get to the cause. It’s not that I’m bored, because I’m actually doing something. I don’t know why I’m getting so hungry at this point. Last night ended up okay… I was hungry as usual, but only had 4 points worth before Meghan woke up and I had to nurse her back to sleep. I ended up falling asleep with her so I didn’t have to try to justify to myself that it was okay to use my banked points to have a bag of popcorn or another Skinny Cow. Anyway, I’ve got to do something…

Progress Chart is Up!
May 25th, 2001 by Anna

Well… I did it… I finally posted my weight progress for all the world to see. Yikes!

Three Pounds Gone!
May 24th, 2001 by Anna

Yay!! I lost three more pounds! That’s 62 total so I got another star for my bookmark and I don’t have to say I’ve lost almost 60 pounds – I can say over! That feels great! I was worried about my weigh in a little because I had a pretty big lunch (I weigh in at 6pm). I need to add exercise back into the mix, but I’m not going to push myself right now. I’m under a lot of stress with the end of school and trying to buy a house and stuff. If I can get the exercise in, great, but I’m not going to beat myself up over it if I don’t.

Great Motivation
May 22nd, 2001 by Anna

Wow. Today is a day to be motivated. I started off the morning with the scale being extra nice to me. Then there was my husband giving me all sorts of wonderful compliments. Then he had me stand in front of the mirror and pointed out individual body parts that have lost weight and are looking good. He pointed out my sides, which don’t have the bulgy fat anymore. He pointed out my arms, and my face. When I looked at individual features as he pointed them out, I had to admit that I’ve come a long way. I’m sure he didn’t appreciate me focusing on my belly though. It’s still got some flab – some of it due to loose skin, I’ll admit, but I used to be able to see my belly button. It’s still in hiding.

When I got to work, it was just one comment after another on my weight loss. It was, “Hi Skinny!” and “Wow, girl!” It was, “You look so good!” and “you have to run around the shower just to get wet.” We had a blood drive at work and one of my coworkers asked the nurse, who I’ve never met before, “Doesn’t she look great?!” I had to explain that I’ve lost close to 60 pounds because I’m sure she was confused why that was being asked. Then I shared some photos of my daughter at the lake with a few ‘net friends of mine. One of the photos had me in a swimsuit next to her. My friends didn’t say near as much about my cutie-patootie little girl as they did about me. These people have me on quite a high today. I’m feeling great!

Plateaus suck
May 20th, 2001 by Anna

Still have a major lack of motivation. Staying on program, but this plateau is really bugging me. It doesn’t help that everyone around me says I don’t need to lose anymore weight. It’s making me a little too comfortable at this stage since I’m wondering if I can get out of it.I’m forcing myself to look at “before” photos and remind myself how far I’ve come. But it’s still not helping me see the big picture – that I have 16 more pounds to go and I should not get comfortable here. It also doesn’t help that when I look in the mirror I don’t see myself any different than I do 59 pounds ago. That’s very frustrating. I can see it when I compare photos – but I see myself in the mirror everyday and I haven’t changed there.

Here’s a face shot of my progress so far. I sure don’t feel comfortable using the entire photos – I was in my bra and panties!

Anyway, I’ve lost another 9 pounds since the last photo so I’m telling myself I must look better still… and don’t I want to look even better than that? So far, I’m not buying it. I’m staying on program, but it’s getting easier to use up those banked points and I’m eyeing those activity points, too. *sigh*

I’m OLD!
May 18th, 2001 by Anna

It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to… *sigh* I’m 30 now. Officially out of my 20’s. It’s not bothering me as much as I thought it would (yet) but I am looking at all of my younger friends and pouting. Oh well.

My weigh in last night was pathetic. I lost one pound. That just means last week and this week make an even and I’ve wasted two weeks. I’m feeling unmotivated lately, too. Well, since last night anyway. The entire week I never ate more than 23 points (max is 25) and then last night, on the way home from Weight Watchers, I went through a drive thru for dinner and ate all of my fries and all of Meghan’s fries and started on Jonathan’s as well. Yeesh. I ended up with 31 points on the day but that was still on program because I had enough banked. Well, today my mother brought a birthday cake to work for me. I left it in the conference room so that everyone could have some and hadn’t had a single bite until a few minutes ago. I took one little piece… that turned into two good sized pieces. Dang it. I have the points, but so much for enjoying a nice dinner!

Excercise is going…
May 14th, 2001 by Anna

Exercise is continuing okay. Meghan actually let me Tae-Bo yesterday morning. She usually screams and wants to be picked up when I start bouncing around. This time she just started dancing to the music. So I got in 30 minutes of Tae-Bo and then later I mowed the front and back lawns. My daily weight isn’t dropping as much as I’d like it to, but I have to be patient, I guess.

No real exercise today. We had family game night tonight. It was being held at a park close to our house, though, so Jonathan and I rode our bikes (me towing Meghan) instead of driving or walking. Not enough exercise to count for anything though. Tomorrow I hope to get in at least some Pilates…

Getting some exercise…
May 12th, 2001 by Anna

Ha! I did it! I forced myself to exercise. Friday I did 30 minutes of advanced Tae-Bo and then I took Meghan (16 month old DD) on a bike ride. I have a trailer for her. I think we went for about 3 1/2 – 4 miles. I haven’t done any exercise today, but if Meghan goes to bed earlier, I will…

May 10th, 2001 by Anna

Okay… I didn’t expect my weigh in to be great, but I certainly didn’t expect a gain! Now I’m ticked. So tomorrow I’m going to exercise, come hell or high water. And I’m going to keep up the fitness program like I should. Dang it, this is not acceptable!

Buffet? No sweat!
May 10th, 2001 by Anna

I’m so proud of myself. Yesterday, Jonathan, Meghan and I ate at Golden Corral’s buffet. I did so good! I served myself a huge plate of vegetables that I ate before I even touched anything else. I had one dinner roll – just one of those hot, soft, buttery bits of heaven. I had just three wee little bites of steak off of Jonathan’s plate. And I didn’t feel deprived. I love the rolls, but I don’t have to have five of them, do I? I just made sure I savored my one. And I love steak, but again, I didn’t need a lot – I just needed to savor the little I had. I left feeling satisfied, not overly full like I used to, and I didn’t feel guilty for overeating.

I don’t expect today’s weigh in to be anything to dance about. I haven’t exercised really in two weeks, and because of that stupid cake, I was on the high end of my points a lot. But I feel good. I’m doing right for my body. I’m really learning how to eat proper portions.

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